Hammers fail against struggling Liverpool as we mourn the passing of West Ham legend Sir Billy Bonds
Hope everyone is safe and well and has avoided the latest flu bug going around.
Sadly we Marshes have been hot by it very hard this past week and me and my wife are still struggling to get back to health.
Life has a habit of throwing you curve balls, and it is how we manage these that defines who we are and probably what we achieve in our lives. I believe that the difficulties we face in this life are opportunities for rewards we receive in the afterlife. As a Muslim, I know that my good deeds when life is going well and the patience I have during the hard times will fill up my reward card for whatever lies beyond.
I was coming home late from work recently, me and my wife had taken some of our group of adults with learning disabilities to see the Cinderella pantomime at the Hackney Empire. It was a full dress rehearsal before the show opened to the public and we were offered free tickets, so we arranged to gather the group and enjoy what was an excellent performance.
I had just dropped off one of the group to their home and was walking to Mile End, I was listening to some music and looking forward to getting home to the warmth. Standing by the crossing, waiting for the lights to change a man approached me and started talking to me. He is currently homeless, he sometimes has enough money to stay at the local shelter where he gets a warm bed, hot drink and food for the night.
He didn’t ask me straight away for anything and I asked if he wanted something to eat or drink, and we started talking about his life when he used to work in construction and had a serious accident that meant he found it hard to find work. Over time, he lost everything, but the thing that struck me the most was he was so grateful that I stopped to chat to him. He said that no one talks to him and he was explaining how people often have a bad view of people like him. He talked about some of the abuse he gets and how he used to be happy and positive, but now he gets overwhelmed by depression. I’ve experienced mental health issues myself that has in the past almost broken me.
I asked him what he needed and he wanted some cash so he could go to the shelter. I gave what I could and he was grateful, asking if he could do anything for me in return, but I said it’s fine and that I just needed to know he was going to be ok. I was able to give him enough money to ensure he had a safe place to stay for the weekend. We hugged and I could tell from his embrace that he was relieved that he could have a warm bed for the next couple of nights.
I am grateful for what I have and having conversations like this with someone who is going through a difficult time puts our own lives into perspective.
There is that old saying, ‘we don’t know what we have until it’s gone’, and mum used to say this to me when I was younger, too young perhaps to appreciate what she meant. We often focus on the negatives, take what we have for granted and this means we are not so present or grateful for the good things we have whilst we still have them: our health, family, friends and possessions, work … stuff that we just accept as part of life until we are thrown a curve ball that knocks things over and causes us to realise how much we take for granted. A significant event has the power to do that to us.
Someone passing away makes us stop and think and consider who that person was for us and I know when my own mother passed away I was faced with a lot of emotions that not only showed me what my mother meant to me and my brother, but also that I had taken a lot for granted in my life and this lead to some very significant life changes.

The passing of Bonzo is an end of a connection to an era in football that over time has turned into a cash bonanza for the few who value very little other than profit for themselves above the needs of the millions of us who follow our teams through thick and thin. There is a lot to learn from legends like Billy Bonds, whose mindset was that if you wanted something, you had to fight for it. Covered in mud, sleeves rolled up, socks pulled down, covered in bruises – and even bandages, pointing and dictating the play and scoring a few goals here and there, Bonzo was the steel of a team that saw him lift the FA Cup twice with the Hammers and captain the side for a decade, finally ending his career due to injury. He was the ideal captain and boy do we need someone like that in the team now!

‘Six foot two, eyes of blue, Billy Bonds is after you’ was the chant to we’d sing as Bonzo demonstrated his combative style of play against any opponent. But for now and forever, we will be singing ‘Billy Bonds Claret and Blue Army’ mourning not just the loss of a legend but of a time when passion was once a key ingredient for players who pulled on the claret and blue shirt before walking out onto the field to the roar of home fans. RIP Bonzo, a true West Ham legend who has inspired many a young fan to follow their dreams.

I’m still upset at the loss at home to a Liverpool side who are a shadow of their previous seasons achievements. Slot has lost the plot, the players seem to not be playing for their manger and given the nature of their poor form and recent defeats, I had hoped we would give them a good game and even win another match to shore up our turnaround in the league. But as I shared with my friends, any team that is on its worst run of form for 72 years is guaranteed to win against us at the London Stadium.


I had managed to arrive a little earlier than usual to the match and walked along Pudding Mill Lane, capturing some early bird fans on their way to the stadium and some ABBA faithful going to ABBA Voyage concert, situated just opposite the DLR station. Wouldn’t mind going there myself, maybe me and my wife could relive our youth boogying away to Dancing Queen! We’ll need to buy some sparkly flared trousers first though!


The police vans lined the road leading to the stadium, more than is usual I noticed, and there were very few fans in the bright, Wintery light that was casting long shadows. These four fans standing in line, with their shadows mirrored by those of other fans outside of the shot make this a nice capture.



I did my usual walk around the stadium, capturing fans arriving and meeting with friends and family and enjoying a drink and some food before the match. I like the natural shots of people just going about their usual pre match routine and I find it fascinating. There is a beauty in the ordinary, something special about capturing the everyday moments of people.




I was not aware until I arrived at the game that Sir Billy had passed away that morning and everything seemed as normal for any prematch amble around the stadium, you just wouldn’t know that anything significant had actually happened – other than me thinking the music echoing around the ground was all a bit 80s. Which I quite liked as the best music ever made comes from that period of time.

I finally decide to head off to turnstile A to wait for my friend, who was running late, and noticed this abandoned half and half scarf – who buys these horrible things? No wonder it was abandoned – there were several other offensive scarfs scattered around as well.

The low light bleaches through the clouds and lightens up the heads and shoulders of those fans who are waiting to go through the turnstiles into the stadium.
It’s a great shot of people mingling around and queuing to go into the stadium and I actually quite like how it is so bleached out in places by the sunlight.



Expectations were high based on the poor form of our visitors, and the atmosphere was lightly charged with the sad news of Bonzo’s passing, which we hoped would put some fire in the bellies of the players to get a result, to put in a shift that our sadly departed Legend would have been proud to be part of himself, or at least to have witnessed from the current squad.

On 4 minutes the crowd responded with applause and chants and a flurry of black balloons were released from behind Areola’s goal a mark of respect but also a reminder of the current campaign we have to win back the club for the fans from the owners.





In the first half, despite Liverpool pressure, I felt we were holding our own defensively. I dared not say this out loud though. I was quietly impressed with Areola, who certainly kept us in the game as the visitors pressed for a goal, but lacked the quality needed to break the deadlock. Mavropanos and Wan-Bissaka were also putting in a bit of a shift the first half, but there was not confidence from Liverpool frontline to make anything of their opportunities.

As the second half started, I felt we had a chance for at least a draw, and was hoping for us to take advantage of the lack of composure from our opponents, but it wasn’t to last.


We had some opportunities initially, but we couldn’t make much of them and I started to feel it wasn’t going to be our day.


Then the inevitable happened, we conceded and you sensed that was it. Overall we hadn’t performed very well, we gave Liverpool too much respect and there just wasn’t the desire in the team to really take hold of the game.

Added to that the total loss of self control from Paqueta to get himself sent off after receiving two yellow cards in quick succession for dissent. What complete madness! This fan shows the frustration we all felt in a game that we could have won, but in which we conspired to lose and went out of our way to hand it to a team who are struggling for form. This only happens to us.


Sooucek on for Potts was not the answer and I struggled with the substitutions Nuno made in this game. Despite some last minute drama with Bowen firing wide, we never looked like getting back into it and down to 10 men it was no surprise to see Gakpo sink a goal into the net to make it 0-2 to the visitors.


We never really troubled Alisson throughout the match, and even with the shattering news of Bonds death, this was a performance that lacked any desire, any passion and any intent to take the game to Liverpool.
It felt familiar, it felt as it often does and you just stare as the players walk around the pitch after the game clapping those fans who had stuck through to the end, despite what we were all watching, wondering if there really are three teams worse than us this season?

At least two fans were enjoying the post match experience with a selfie before leaving the ground. There was very little else to take away from the game.

I wandered around the stadium chatting with my friend as well went off in search of a warm drink as it was feeling decidedly chilly, and looking back at the stadium I just wandered what would we need to get ourselves back on track this season? Does this team have what it takes for the fight ahead? Or are we already doomed with a squad lacking quality and commitment to drop down into the Championship?

What would Bonzo do? How would he respond to what is happening to our club, both on and off the pitch? How would he inspire the team and get the owners onside to invest in a team that can compete in the Premier League?
Sir Billy Bonds was a great man, an absolute gentleman off the pitch with many admirers for the way he carried himself as a father, a friend and a person. But on the pitch he was a warrior and a leader, someone whom his team mates trusted and fought for because they knew he would do the same for them. This took courage, commitment and real character, something that too often is absent in any meaningful way in our current team.
Maybe we expect too much given how the game has changed, but in many ways, has it changed that much that we cannot have players like Bonzo in a modern team that would compete at this level? It takes more than patience during these difficulties times and for sure Bonds, as a captain, would have pulled Paqueta over to one side and made sure he did not get himself sent off. Having someone in the team to at least do that, surely isn’t too much to ask for?
Take care everyone
Dawud














































































































































































































































































































































































































